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30 years ago, Emergence...

Today was the 30th anniversary of the day I was birthed.

3 decades on Earth so far and what is it all for?

I'd like to think that my particular presence in space and time has meaning. That all the effort and resources my parents and teachers over the years have invested in me will somehow come to fruition.

I feel like I have accomplished some things that have been worthy of their contributions, but in some ways I feel like there is still so much to do to make it up to them.

I am still working on my BS degrees in Physics and Information Technology. There are many good reasons I have for such a drawn out timeline, but to me it is hard to swallow. I should be finishing my first PhD by now, but my choices in life have not manifested that reality. It is still my goal to accomplish someday, but I have become more comfortable with the way things have turned out so far within the given timeline.

I have learned that since, as far as I can determine, there is only one of me, and time seems to progress in a sinusoidal pattern, that living tends to become a process of determining what is most important at a given moment and trading all other possible actions and resultant outcomes for the actions and outcomes of the highest priority path choice.

*** First blogger lesson learned ***

Well I have been tapping away at hundreds of keys for the last hour for a really great birthday post. There were like 10 paragraphs past the one above. But, some how I just tapped something wrong and it all just was erased. It is late and I was on a freeflow thought dump, so I don't remember what I typed, It is just gone.

So here is my 30th birthday advice,
When writing a really long blog, do it in a text editor that lets you save as you go. That way you get at least two benefits.
1 - You can save and reload or undo serious mistakes.
2 - see #1

I will try to post the main point of what was lost tomorrow... or not.

-Ziv

Comments

  1. Oh no! 10 pharagraphs...

    I am on my way to 30th, what a relief now that I know I must blog all the heavy thoughts on a text editor *first*. >:*)

    10 pharagraphs, now that is frustrating. I am sure some really great insights were just lost into cyberspace.

    >:*(

    Grrrr....

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