In every generation there are those that through no effort of their own rise to the top of intelligence and creativity. Then there are those that work like hell to scratch and claw one single brilliant and original thought from their stubborn mind. These are the musings of the latter type.
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Last Sunset of 2005, Cannon Beach, Oregon
2005 was a dynamic year, full of huge changes in my life. Seing the last sunset of the year was bittersweet for me.
I am glad to see the year pass, knowing that I made it... I survived and things are moving in new directions that I would not have imagined a year ago. At the same time, parts of my life I have known for years will never be again. People and places I had built my life around are no longer there, and I have to go through the process of redefining... who, what, when, where, why, how much, etc. As the sun sank into the ocean, I looked forward to facing tomorrow's sunrise. The process of life... the turning wheel... appreciating all that I have experienced and eager for more.
I have been asked about the Rune and what it means, and after a bit of online research I found out quite a few interesting things. Before this search, I knew it meant "safehaven" or "protection". There are some interesting things to interpret from it's meaning and my use of it. Seems the Dark Lord was a guardian/protector... and one of my favorite finds during this search for the meaning was the following bit of inspiration that is from the www.tarahill.com site. You will also see this below, but I wanted to put it here too for emphasis.
"In terms of the journey, we have passed through death and rebirth, and must now face the Guardian before returning to our world. It is he who charges us to use our new-found power wisely. The person can no longer be simply concerned with their own personal development, but must now consider the effect that their actions may have on others. This is a crucial turning point, and the person will either choose to adopt a system…
Here I sit, in peace. Surrounded by the shards of my broken illusions.I don’t know everything, but I do know all.All is one in motion…The water is the cloud, the cloud is the rain, the rain is the stream, the stream is the river, the river is the ocean, the ocean is the cloud and the cloud is water.I am stardust, I am a single cell, I am a baby, I am a child, I am a youth, I am an adolescent, I am an adult, I am elderly, I am stardust.Reality is transition, it is the Delta.I am “Delta Stardust” in the behavior of the dust I find myself.Without the transition, I am not.I used to fear what was to come, the next instant in time was a terror in the back of my mind.We felt it more as children, the boogey man of reality under our beds.The constant anticipation of the nightmare, that waits for us in the next moment.Now I know that there is nothing to fear, that things are unfolding as they have been since before matter formed.It is a flow of energy, changing forms, through me, through you.Ca…
Today I saw the wave, it was a slow moving rise in the ocean.
As it approached, I could feel the water pull toward it, like a massive breath in.
Then the swell, it was incredible, from low to high, the power was impressive...
I am watching the life of a soul drawn in to its own rhythm.
Breathe in... Breathe out, it is such a simple concept but at the same time such a powerful and critical pattern.
So here I breathe, as my soul crashes upon the shore. I am the wave, I am the ocean, I am the rhythm of life. The patterns of survival. It is all here and at the same time, everywhere.
What should I say, is it contrary to the natural patterns to want more?
To seek the truth of the patterns. To find the source of the pain.
All I want is a day filled with light, to have the clouds not rain down on me, but to feel the warm sun on my shoulders. The light of the star telling me it is okay, that I can move on and that tomorrow will be brighter than today.